Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Myself I forgot

There is nothing better then you
you are the best thing
with all you do
I've never had
anything that compares to you.

The lies
that are
slung
the tails
that are
woven
The spirals
unfolding
the third eye
and all
it's showing.

Once,
it was only you
and you alone
there was no other,
other then you

As the days turn
and unfold
and the worlds
you know
turns cold
by my last dying breaths
the horror and the deaths

It is you
It is you
it is you
it is you

The spirit in the sky
the permanent vacation
show me
the ocean state

The tar that proofs
you're luv
it's how
you stuck to me
and above
sticky, gritty
and oh so hot
run over
forever blunt
I'm stained
chipped and diveted
dipped and raised
always being worked on
but never fixed
or repaired
always battered
and beaten
oil and rubber
one and the same
the modern horse/hoarse
and it's fearful owner
who rides on the fumes
of an ancient time
moving toward
the future
praising the
newest item of demise
the past is looking for
a scapegoat
to feed
a bit
of fruit
it's looking
for the future
not for love
but for revenge
the past is dead
and wishes
at the present
that in the end
it will join it.
It lives
only to
watch the facts:
It hates to be alone
the future only cares
that the past
can be used
like a stepping stone
yet
it misses the current
fashion and faze
ac/dc
tactical team
The past is setting the future up
you can count on it
or tag it
and or
bag it.
Don't you use
those words?

Unbelievable
how terrible
the entire truth
whispering lies
Ones own deluded self interest.
This is all for you
you are the best
this is a dream
come true
for you
for me;
To be only a guest!?

In the present
state of affairs
the checked
box
is not
a cover up
but
a new
historic spot.

Rock on
don't let
the beat
drop

Y
MC
A

got your fire
burning
and your lower back
all hot
x mark
and the spot

Fire
with in
fire
spun out

Fans of
emotions
ripple
through

The day
ends
and it's always
never with you.

The past
The Present
The future
goes nowhere.

Your left
and right
end up
typing
out the
last few
snorting lines
of thoughts
about
how it was
and how it was
not

The wind
sounds
like  a train
and all I feel
is the rain
the vain
and the pain

The window is shut
the key
is unlocked
The time is now

Myself I forgot!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

“An Under the Dirty Hat thought for the 13 year old out in the world experiencing Techno for the first time and the seasoned veteran of the Techno and Rave scene:”



“An Under the Dirty Hat thought for the 13 year old out in the world experiencing Techno for the first time and the seasoned veteran of the Techno and Rave scene:” 

I had a discussion through private message with Pat Fontes a month ago on a post he made about DJing today, Pat can correct me but it started off with a post he had about how DJ's today are promoting themselves.  My conversation and thoughts stretched into how today's music promotions for DJ's & Producers are a new beast one that is in its infantile state to say a seasoned Veteran.  I’ve elaborated on my thoughts of the future and what it holds from this chat conversation and with support by Pat nudging me to elaborate and share.  Below is my initial response to Pat:

“Hey Pat I agree with you, I've been DJing for a long time but not to any degree of fame, I've been doing it strictly as a hobby and for fun, I've not promoted myself as a professional DJ because people who run nights want to have people who will draw a crowd so they can make money so they can keep a club night open or a monthly party going, so why lie and inflate my worth. I feel I'm realistic about my status as a DJ maybe I even under value my worth, anyway. These DJ's are trying to sell themselves to a very big community. The biggest difference today to me is the fact that kids today are going to schools and majoring in EDM taking 4 years to learn software, tools and learn club promotions, etc. It's maybe nothing new to say a person who majored in music but it's very new to this scene, it's an infant. This isn't a problem with me, I think it's great but it is certainly a different beast then say handing a tape out to people for four years at raves. These kids are leaning about the music business and building an entire new field for education. The product that will be the outcome to me is what intrigues me the most. Will a DJ/Producer who took 4 years of electronic music classes who has a bachelor degree for it be worth hiring over a kid who spent 4 years working as a wedding DJ who did side electronic music events etc. This is truly a new era for the music genres. Will fame be based on your likes on your DJ page or by the skills on a live performance? Will people really care who the fuck is DJing as long as they hear the newest sounds from the DJ who plays the one genre they like? Will we see more a producer doing live acts instead of sitting in a studio making tracks for DJ’s to play out? Where is this scene headed? Is the large festival truly recognizing this as just a fad and cashing in or are they really building a larger more major league stage, that maybe your favorite DJ who has played to crowds and has put out solid music for 20 year may never look out from that stage upon the crowd but in the end only be a part of the crowd? Life of the DJ is more then just one thinking we have many new levels of what it is to be a DJ. I say good luck to those who strive to be a superstar but I also feel sad for that as the dream is so over valued.”

            Today being schooled is not just a lesson in slang but is an actual scenario playing out at some colleges.  Students are majoring in EDM.  You laugh out loud, you snort, you think how redonkulous.  It’s true skool man, it’s here and it’s our future.  Questions, questions and well question everything you know.  
I wonder will schools be creating a scene all their own, with the absence of the inventors and godfathers of this music or could they deepen the love for the music and scene by providing classes with guest speakers from these major players?  Let’s hope this is the case.

Will the College Educated DJ/Producer be the over the top ridiculous selfish promoter, who will over value his worth and shamelessly promote his/her Facebook Page and or Soundcloud site while paying for Facebook ads and YouTube advertising. Isn’t this already happening? 
What will happen of labels who are digital?  Is it possible that labels by college students funded by a bachelor degree and a college be the next best label to be dancing to out in the club?  Will these college labels pop up and be like the kids of my day who put out Fanzines?  While some Fanzines had substance and were worth reading and some were not.  Will the college own a label, like colleges own Radio Stations?  Speaking of Radio Stations will these kids get more play because the radio station will put students into rotation over a kid who is making beats in his room?  Depending on the college radio station and how it’s run will obviously answer this question.                  
Oh so many questions and very few answers at this time only because of how new this College DJ/Producer degree programs are.  The Professors who are teaching these classes have a long road ahead of them, not only must they be proficient in the newest of technology and hopefully be established in the electronic music scene in some facet for a superior classroom experience.  They are charting a new curriculum not just future chart musicians.  What will the classes look like and who will be teaching?  I think teaching student’s music theory by a guitar/piano teacher could be worth while.  However you don’t want to be taught Turntabalism 101 by the Wind instrument professor or Professor who can’t hold his own at a Turntable Contest.  Searching out a degree program to be in the Electronic Music Industry may not be simple now but as the demand grows for this field more schools will be offering classes.  Some will be cashing in on the popularity of the genre and others will be taking the steps to really make this a worth while endeavor for the future students. 
My hope is that people who are currently involved in the scene from minor to major players keep the future musicians aware of what to look for in a school.  These future students, these children who may not even be born yet will not be joining us in the club scene as a first experience anymore, they will be experiencing electronic music through a computer, from a book, something bought and pre-packaged for them to study.  I feel it’s important to reach out to children and communities about Electronic music, find a community center in your area, volunteer and teach a workshop.  Start writing blogs now for the future, pointing these kids in the right directions.  Speak about the inventors the pioneers to great sounds and tracks of our times.  If you are filled with knowledge of any genre of music I suggest starting a blog and sharing that knowledge.  Who knows it could lead to a great job.  It’s the work we put in on our end that will inspire a generation to do this right to keep the music strong within its roots.  Point the children to good schools; inform them on what to be looking for in a school that teaches electronic music as a major. Support these schools that are teaching this because it’s how we can build the future.  Most important to me is so that we don’t find ourselves with an over saturated industry of mediocre mindless soulless music to have to dig through while shopping online.  Shit has this happened already?  It’s not worth complaining about either, it’s here, it’s like complaining about vinyl vs. CD; that is so over.  It’s not worth your time to bitch about it.  Getting behind this future is only going to add substance to it.  It’s on us to keep the future of electronic music moving forward pushing the envelope and searching for the sounds that I hope mainstream seeks out for inspirations rather then seeking out inspiration from mainstream music, although finding inspiration in general is a good thing and is tough to find sometimes.
  With that said, I’ve only found myself asking more questions: Where is the music going and what will it sound like in the future.  Will we have the many genres we have?  Will pop eat up the underground?  Will the underground be saturated with college EDM bachelor degree students who play kick ass music or soulless sounds? 
I’ve been listening for over 20 years and I will continue to listen until I go deaf, sadly closer then I’d like and when that happens, I’ll sit on a speaker and feel it, so basically until I die I’ll be listening to this music.  I hope the students of EDM take the time to experience the many levels of club life and many different parties, festivals and underground scenes, the many genres, the many instruments and platforms for a full experience of this music.  How lucky to possible have it all at your fingertips while in a classroom.  However it will be important for them to build a scene where they live because you can’t just do it with a piece of paper.  There is something special and something to revere of the DJ/Producer who has put in the years equivalent to a PHD, clubbing, raving, record shopping, making beats and traveling the world.  I’m excited to hear the future of electronic music and all it’s genres. 
I’ll end with a conversation by Derrick May that was sampled into a drum n bass track by the EZ Rollers called Retro that I’ve always loved and that expresses a very important message:
It’s sad…  In the 20th century, in the 1990s we have to still go the same bullshit route that other artists have to go to get acceptance.
If it wasn’t for the independents, if it wasn’t for the small little cities, and the few little ghetto guys trying to make music it would have never happened.  Some of these guys will never make a dime. Some of these guys will be poor and die alone. But in the process, they’ve been the true renegades. And the true rebels always walk alone anyway….

And if you think school is cool here is a story about one such school going this route:



Written from:
Under the Dirty Hat

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Occupy Wall Street:

Occupy Wall Street:

I’m reading and watching the internet news.  I’ve read reports from The Wall Street Journal and I’ve read reports on the changes The Wall Street journal has made to the stories it has published on the web.  http://www.addictinginfo.org/2011/10/01/new-york-times-blatantly-edits-article-about-occupy-wall-street-to-protect-police-image/

I was taken aback this week after hearing NPR and I believe Tom from On Point blow off a listener who was speaking about occupy Wall Street.  Tom simply let the question and concerns of the listener trail off into radio waves frequencies unheard by man so that he could change the subject to Russia, and then proceed to ask his panel of guest about Russia.  Why not ask them about the Occupy Wall Street and their opinion on it?  Shall I dare say The Wall Street Journal being a partner in NPR, could they maybe have you by your balls and thus have told you to not report on these events.   It couldn’t be a corporation could do this to news?

Watching and listening to the commercial news, the radio and print I am hearing that these Occupy Wall Street people are anarchist, socialist, freaks, unorganized and lack any meaning protesters have no singular voice.  Yes no voice yet to be heard by the corporate owned media, that most of America will listen to and trust and this lack of actual reporting of news will be the reason this effort may fall on the blind and deaf ears of hearing and seeing America. 

These protesters from all accounts that I have read from Internet news or watched on the web via YouTube have all been saying that Occupy Wall Street is about Wall Street.  It’s about how they have been saved by the tax payers and bailed out yet those American who paid the taxes, who worked to help this bail out be paid for have been taken over the coals.  Lost homes, lost jobs and are loosing American Rights.  They have been abused and have had enough of Wall Street.  This is a cause and those people who are in the streets are Americans  and we as Americans should be proud of them.  They are not inciting violent protests, they are not hurling rocks or bottles or aiming weapons, they are protesting: something protected by our Constitution and one that should be protected by our Government.  These American protesters have a right to protest. 

The current trend by corporate media is to make these protestors seem to not have a clue of what cause they are marching for however it’s easy to find a person with a cause and an opinion in a protest.  Sometimes the one cause can lead to other discussion and or heart felt feelings on other areas these protestors have as concerns.  This does not make them weak or unorganized it makes them Americans, it makes them free.  They are allowed to have a voice, the louder it is maybe the more will hear and the more that hear the more that will join and the more that join the quicker we see changes.

I find it appalling that people will get behind a US soldier on the streets of some Foreign country and tell me I'm not patriotic if I don't support them.  However it's these same people that ask me to support these troops that ask me not to support my fellow American who is on our streets trying to have their voice heard on injustices in our country.  If you don't agree with protesting don't do it but don't tell the protestor it's not allowed.  That is why the US Military is fighting in other countries because someone's voice was heard, although I worry the wrong voice was heard I have to admit my view is that they are protesting Terrorism and they are using weapons to protest Terrorism organized under one flag the American flag.  I support my fellow Americans fighting for our country today in New York.  As I worry the wrong voice may have been heard to send our troops to foreign streets maybe you worry the wrong voice is being heard by the Occupy Wall Street protestors, funny isn't it, no not really!  Why?  Because our voice the American voice is not whole it is not United there is another voice that is feeding the American People and that voice is corporate America, this voice should be heard but it should not be the "one voice" that speaks for America.  The Americans who have gathered in protest in New York gather as a voice trying to gain that voice lost in our country.  Please protect the protestors by reminding our leaders it is our voice that is being slowly strangled by Wall Street; the American voice.  Do not allow the corporate terrorist to run our country.  This is the voice I hear, the voice I feel is right the voice I believe those in New York who want to Occupy Wall Street are also hearing. 

    
By: Frank Walls

Friday, January 7, 2011

Intent – Will – Sorcery

Intent – Will – Sorcery

Last night
with the realization
that after so many short years
the life I have
 is only
a true observation
of my sincere inability
to be understood
by the reflection
one takes in
in an other wise true moment of insight
 upon ones self
searching soulful mind and body
 the fruition
 that the mirrored reflection
 is one repeated
over and over and over
of ones useless life
of many failures
that have taught me
my most pleasing quality
and that is to know
the mans madness
is only brought upon oneself
 when man himself
 has to admit
lack of his intelligence
upon the unspeakable
crimes
upon man
that he allows
 to happen to oneself.

By 13walls ©

Friday, December 31, 2010

2011: The Silent Thought Year


2011: The Silent Thought Year

Like this year, 2010, I've waited for you to arrive for a very long time, however 2011, you I've been waiting for since I heard your year whispered to me by something in the early ninety’s.  What that something was still remains a mystery to me.  Although I'm embarrassed to say I've heard voices speak to me because it opens up to many that I may actually truly be completely crazy and insane, maybe a fear everyone has from time to time but one fear I've been carrying on my shoulders for almost twenty years and this year is the year that I guess I will be rewarded with the knowledge that I've been privy to and or be rewarded with the knowledge that I just may need to be locked up in the loony bin for my own safety.  Now before any of you people who may read this began to think and maybe want to say to me, "yeah your crazy" haha, this is no joke to me.  Before any of you try and console me into thinking I need some reassurance that I'm fine, Don't!  Too many years have gone by and as deeply as you may care for me, that what occurred to me the day the year was put into my brain was real and it did happen.  I've alluded to many of you over the years about 2011 and spoke both in jest and in all to real seriousness to this year.  Most will probably not even remember and I may not recall all the conversation I have had but I've hinted at it and I've commented on it this upcoming year 2011.  What will occur has not been really conveyed.  Why, because it hasn't been conveyed to me.  But it will be and when it happens, yes “it” so yes something will happen an event, a crisis a disaster a day, I don't really know what, maybe it's good, oh I truly hope it's going to be something good.   But last time I checked things where not well around the world.  So who knows?  If I was warned of something then I should have been prepared for it and I would have been in some way warning all of you.  Have I been?  Am I prepared?  I don't really think so but I guess we will find out.  As I write this I see the craziness of the story and can see if I've suppressed anything maybe it's for a good reason for the past twenty years so that I wouldn't be locked up and put away.  But the year is arriving and I've been waiting.  Who knows maybe it will be the year my brain wakes up to it's full potential; I could gain superhuman mind powers and unlock the mystery that is in us all or maybe not.  I've been waiting, I've been holding my tongue I've been observing and I see that it's coming we all know it's coming it's a few hours away and I'm as nervous as I've ever been and excited like a first date.  I've had many thoughts as to what this year holds in its future, as I know it holds something.  Unlike the big disappointment that was 2010 I have some expectations invested in 2011 because it came to me before any other year and unlike any other thought, and I truly hope you don't disappoint me like 2010.  I should say with my knowledge that is this; one should not live with expectations because it could lead to disappointment.
2011 your silent approach and arrival after 2010 was always second to that of it's predecessor, 2010, where many a science fiction stories lived and breathed for 2010, 2011 was overlooked, forgotten .  You see, people thought we would be living on Mars or flying our flying cars to work or living with robots by 2010.   In truth some are but many are blind to see it.  We have people who have private jets and or private helicopters for those that can afford it, there is a people carrier being designed by Virgin that will get people to go to space.  We have cities that float on the water that allow some to never have to touch dry land.  We have the ability to talk into an earpiece to any person in the world that may have another earpiece.  We can see people around the world from our own personal computers and share a dinner with them.  We can be friends, good friends with someone living in another country because we can click and or touch to be with them.  I've seen robots that clean the house or at least vacuum, some that serve food in restaurants and others that actually can carry on a conversation as good as say a 3 year old.  Not bad, but in reality, it's not what we expected is it.  So many of us have been disappointed by 2010.  We have many people out of work, we have politicians lying to us and getting rich on us voting them into office, we have business’s closing doors, the argument about global warming, major environmental issues and last to cover the large spectrum we are still fighting wars and only just starting to have our flying robots do the dirty work.  No end in sight to the many problems we are truly facing at the end of 2010 and there following 2010 is the silent year 2011.  The year that was skipped over for the 2012 Mayan expectations that the world may end because their calendar ends.  That alone probably would piss any human being off, but maybe I connect with 2011 because I'm listed as a generation x child.  Overlooked with nothing to say because oh the 21st century was coming and we just got fucked in the ass by our coked out 80's generation yuppie I'll get mine and fuck the rest pompous prick attitude neighbors we never even got to meet but without thought of our future ruined it as if it was their property to own and devalue cause they moved out and left a crack house next door.  So maybe I somehow connect with 2011 because of these simple crazy facts, these things we see but don't think too much about because that would mean we would be wasting our time on well fiction.  But I ask haven't we been doing that, haven't we been living in a world of fiction?   OK, maybe it’s just me!  Maybe I've been fooling myself all these years.  Maybe I didn't have this year put in my head by something and maybe again I'm just going down the same path as I've been on since my birth one that has been made up of things to come but never did, things that won't come but did.  Truthfully I know I'm confused.  I don't think the bad guys are always the bad guys and I don't think the good guys are always the good guys and I know I'm not either black or white that their is a lot of gray a lot of color a lot of things that keep me going, this place going and since we all have a part, I do believe my part may just be arriving in 2011.  Maybe I will find my voice and that may be all that I need and that voice will be comforting to me and those that need to hear it.  So as 2011 hits I hope that I'm not the only one that has had this feeling about this up coming year that this 2011 is not solely riding on fiction and false hopes and or a crazy mans thought that he was told to look forward to.   That as 2011 was whispered into my brain almost 20 years ago was not in vain but that I hold my reality in the truth that what ever occurs it will occur with this very destructive positive problematic organism and that of course is us the human being; we will be at the core of this year in 2011.  I want to say we are a strange bunch, we give birth and then take life, and we use it all up and try to fight for it before it's all gone.  We are fucked up, I'm fucked up because of it and I hope because 2011 has been overlooked for so long that maybe 2011 will be the year that truly wakes us up, shakes the ground most take for granted.  But I don't really know other then I've got a feeling and this year in my brain.  Although vague as this may sound, people will be both the yin and yang of this year, 2011.  Maybe the people who have been overlooked for so many years the people who have been in the middle overshadowed by someone in front and someone in back who seem to promise so much but never delivered, but these people stood their in the middle watching and waiting and they know that they will and could just be the people who lead in the future.  Again I don't know for sure I could just be making this up as I go or maybe it's meant to be said all I really know is that 2011 has been put in my head and that it has been overlooked as the future.  I want to say I'm hopeful and I want to say I believe in us to do the right thing but I again have to be realistic and take from our past and say, I think most of us will think,  "I didn't see that coming" and well it's been on route for awhile.  You know that kind of feeling that you where made a fool of and you didn’t see it coming.  Well this may be that time, I may be putting myself out to be made a fool of but I think it’s worth it.  That night almost twenty years ago was just a night to most people but was not one that I will forget and although I hope I don’t look to foolish I do think it’s worth sharing.  2011 I want to welcome you with a big large hug of love from my own self and if you are listening as I was that night you came rushing into my head, know that you have not been overlooked that your arrival to me is important is special you hold my future.  I only hope that I succeeded in whatever it is that you may have planned for the year.  I should just simply state that I am happy that you are arriving 2011 and I look forward to being with you for 365 days.  Thanks for rolling around in my thoughts for so many years.  May you bring more joy then pain but may you not be forgotten either.  Peace!  
By: 13walls (c)