2011: The Silent Thought Year
Like this year, 2010, I've waited for you to arrive for a very long time, however 2011, you I've been waiting for since I heard your year whispered to me by something in the early ninety’s. What that something was still remains a mystery to me. Although I'm embarrassed to say I've heard voices speak to me because it opens up to many that I may actually truly be completely crazy and insane, maybe a fear everyone has from time to time but one fear I've been carrying on my shoulders for almost twenty years and this year is the year that I guess I will be rewarded with the knowledge that I've been privy to and or be rewarded with the knowledge that I just may need to be locked up in the loony bin for my own safety. Now before any of you people who may read this began to think and maybe want to say to me, "yeah your crazy" haha, this is no joke to me. Before any of you try and console me into thinking I need some reassurance that I'm fine, Don't! Too many years have gone by and as deeply as you may care for me, that what occurred to me the day the year was put into my brain was real and it did happen. I've alluded to many of you over the years about 2011 and spoke both in jest and in all to real seriousness to this year. Most will probably not even remember and I may not recall all the conversation I have had but I've hinted at it and I've commented on it this upcoming year 2011. What will occur has not been really conveyed. Why, because it hasn't been conveyed to me. But it will be and when it happens, yes “it” so yes something will happen an event, a crisis a disaster a day, I don't really know what, maybe it's good, oh I truly hope it's going to be something good. But last time I checked things where not well around the world. So who knows? If I was warned of something then I should have been prepared for it and I would have been in some way warning all of you. Have I been? Am I prepared? I don't really think so but I guess we will find out. As I write this I see the craziness of the story and can see if I've suppressed anything maybe it's for a good reason for the past twenty years so that I wouldn't be locked up and put away. But the year is arriving and I've been waiting. Who knows maybe it will be the year my brain wakes up to it's full potential; I could gain superhuman mind powers and unlock the mystery that is in us all or maybe not. I've been waiting, I've been holding my tongue I've been observing and I see that it's coming we all know it's coming it's a few hours away and I'm as nervous as I've ever been and excited like a first date. I've had many thoughts as to what this year holds in its future, as I know it holds something. Unlike the big disappointment that was 2010 I have some expectations invested in 2011 because it came to me before any other year and unlike any other thought, and I truly hope you don't disappoint me like 2010. I should say with my knowledge that is this; one should not live with expectations because it could lead to disappointment.
2011 your silent approach and arrival after 2010 was always second to that of it's predecessor, 2010, where many a science fiction stories lived and breathed for 2010, 2011 was overlooked, forgotten . You see, people thought we would be living on Mars or flying our flying cars to work or living with robots by 2010. In truth some are but many are blind to see it. We have people who have private jets and or private helicopters for those that can afford it, there is a people carrier being designed by Virgin that will get people to go to space. We have cities that float on the water that allow some to never have to touch dry land. We have the ability to talk into an earpiece to any person in the world that may have another earpiece. We can see people around the world from our own personal computers and share a dinner with them. We can be friends, good friends with someone living in another country because we can click and or touch to be with them. I've seen robots that clean the house or at least vacuum, some that serve food in restaurants and others that actually can carry on a conversation as good as say a 3 year old. Not bad, but in reality, it's not what we expected is it. So many of us have been disappointed by 2010. We have many people out of work, we have politicians lying to us and getting rich on us voting them into office, we have business’s closing doors, the argument about global warming, major environmental issues and last to cover the large spectrum we are still fighting wars and only just starting to have our flying robots do the dirty work. No end in sight to the many problems we are truly facing at the end of 2010 and there following 2010 is the silent year 2011. The year that was skipped over for the 2012 Mayan expectations that the world may end because their calendar ends. That alone probably would piss any human being off, but maybe I connect with 2011 because I'm listed as a generation x child. Overlooked with nothing to say because oh the 21st century was coming and we just got fucked in the ass by our coked out 80's generation yuppie I'll get mine and fuck the rest pompous prick attitude neighbors we never even got to meet but without thought of our future ruined it as if it was their property to own and devalue cause they moved out and left a crack house next door. So maybe I somehow connect with 2011 because of these simple crazy facts, these things we see but don't think too much about because that would mean we would be wasting our time on well fiction. But I ask haven't we been doing that, haven't we been living in a world of fiction? OK, maybe it’s just me! Maybe I've been fooling myself all these years. Maybe I didn't have this year put in my head by something and maybe again I'm just going down the same path as I've been on since my birth one that has been made up of things to come but never did, things that won't come but did. Truthfully I know I'm confused. I don't think the bad guys are always the bad guys and I don't think the good guys are always the good guys and I know I'm not either black or white that their is a lot of gray a lot of color a lot of things that keep me going, this place going and since we all have a part, I do believe my part may just be arriving in 2011. Maybe I will find my voice and that may be all that I need and that voice will be comforting to me and those that need to hear it. So as 2011 hits I hope that I'm not the only one that has had this feeling about this up coming year that this 2011 is not solely riding on fiction and false hopes and or a crazy mans thought that he was told to look forward to. That as 2011 was whispered into my brain almost 20 years ago was not in vain but that I hold my reality in the truth that what ever occurs it will occur with this very destructive positive problematic organism and that of course is us the human being; we will be at the core of this year in 2011. I want to say we are a strange bunch, we give birth and then take life, and we use it all up and try to fight for it before it's all gone. We are fucked up, I'm fucked up because of it and I hope because 2011 has been overlooked for so long that maybe 2011 will be the year that truly wakes us up, shakes the ground most take for granted. But I don't really know other then I've got a feeling and this year in my brain. Although vague as this may sound, people will be both the yin and yang of this year, 2011. Maybe the people who have been overlooked for so many years the people who have been in the middle overshadowed by someone in front and someone in back who seem to promise so much but never delivered, but these people stood their in the middle watching and waiting and they know that they will and could just be the people who lead in the future. Again I don't know for sure I could just be making this up as I go or maybe it's meant to be said all I really know is that 2011 has been put in my head and that it has been overlooked as the future. I want to say I'm hopeful and I want to say I believe in us to do the right thing but I again have to be realistic and take from our past and say, I think most of us will think, "I didn't see that coming" and well it's been on route for awhile. You know that kind of feeling that you where made a fool of and you didn’t see it coming. Well this may be that time, I may be putting myself out to be made a fool of but I think it’s worth it. That night almost twenty years ago was just a night to most people but was not one that I will forget and although I hope I don’t look to foolish I do think it’s worth sharing. 2011 I want to welcome you with a big large hug of love from my own self and if you are listening as I was that night you came rushing into my head, know that you have not been overlooked that your arrival to me is important is special you hold my future. I only hope that I succeeded in whatever it is that you may have planned for the year. I should just simply state that I am happy that you are arriving 2011 and I look forward to being with you for 365 days. Thanks for rolling around in my thoughts for so many years. May you bring more joy then pain but may you not be forgotten either. Peace!
By: 13walls (c)
